Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Everything is fine here, and how are you?

Life with two babes is moving along nicely; everyone is adjusting, growing, and there is NO sign of PPD this time around!!! Savannah is gorgeous and her eyes are becoming the same blue of her sisters, and I am sooooo in love.

My sis is home from the UK until September (YAY!!!), here's a pic of her with Sav:

Emma's been busy playing with friends and jumping on their trampolines:

Daddy and Emma have been busy staring each other down. (haha, not).

My gorgeous girl at 3 weeks and 5 days. Happy 4 weeks tomorrow, Roo!

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Sunday, July 15, 2007
First, some pictures to document our first weeks:
Savanahh's tiny little legs...oh, how quickly these sticks will turn into chub-bubs! (our family term for chubby legs).

Jared sits with his baby girls while I make breakfast for the clan.

Emmie enjoys playing outside with chalk!

Sweetie Roo LOVES the bouncy chair my mom got her! In fact, she's sleeping in it right now!


Tonight marks the first time I'm alone with the girls in the evening. My mom stayed long enough to hold Savannah while I rushed Emma through her bedtime routine and put her in her toddler bed, then I kissed mom goodbye and settled on the couch to nurse Savannah for what turned into an hour long marathon of sucking. I love those peaceful, uninterrupted nurse-athons!

Jared started his new shift at work today. From now on he'll work Sun, Mon, Tues & Wed, 2:30pm - 1am. Then he's off every Thurs, Fri & Sat!!! We are LOVING the prospect of three consecutive days to do whatever we please! We had the choice of what shift he wanted to bid for, and took this over the usual 5 days of work with one weekday off and one weekend day off (he previously was off Wed and Sat, which we hated). The days are very long and I'm still not sure how I'll manage with both kids for that long by myself, especially with the way Emma is acting lately. She screams her head off at every little thing, wants to do everything herself, and never wants anyone to touch her when she's upset. She jumps, climbs, runs into everything. She throws things and herself all over. In short, she's a toddler asserting her independence, nothing more or less than completely normal and expected. But the poor thing is also experiencing something...perhaps sibling rivalry? Whatever this phase is, it's really darn hard on both her and me. We'll get through this, but sometimes it seems impossible.
Okay, here's the warning. Unless you want to read about my body afterchildbirth, stop here. Really. I need to rant about the lady parts for a minute. So if you're a guy...or, well, pretty much if you're not me or a midwife of if you've never experienced childbirth and don't want to hear the grisly truth, then do yourself a favor and stop reading. NOW.

I made the mistake of looking in the mirror very closely at the lady parts. Big mistake. I tore up, not down, and now my labia is kind of just hanging there, not connected on the top anymore. I guess Elaine (my midwife) couldn't stitch it back up where it belongs because she'd have to basically stitch it to the clit - ummm...impossible. I did some asking around and some research, and I think that if I ever want to get it fixed I'd have to have some kind of plastic surgery. Not that I'm thinking that far ahead, but I am a bit freaked.

Okay, I'm more than a bit freaked. I spent 10 minutes sobbing this morning about the state of things down there. Don't get me wrong; pushing Savannah out was THE most empowering, amazing thing I've ever done and I'm damn proud of myself. But really, let's just be honest here: no one can tear their genitals and NOT think "Oh my god, when will this look/feel normal again???". Jared swears up and down that it's okay, I'm gorgeous, he still wants me, and that if I want/need it, I can get everything fixed.

Not that I necessarily want it put back the way it was, mind you. Remember, the c-section with Emma took away my right and my ability to birth her naturally. Savannah's amazing birth wiped away all the pain from the c-section, and I kind of like having the physical marks of doing that.

Okay, end of rant. Just in time, too, as Savannah is waking up and seems ready to be changed/nursed/sung to/rocked back to sleep for the night.

Posted by Kier at 9:14 PM | 2 comments
Friday, July 06, 2007
last night was endless. savvy was up every hour on the hour, caught in a wicked cycle of nurse, burp, change boobs, nurse, fall asleep, wake up needed to burp/fart, poop, diaper change, nurse, etc. it was endless, i tell you!

thank god janice understands!!! wanna get savannah and charlotte together and see if their screams will cancel each other out and maybe then they'd just rest quietly? :)

in the middle of our long night, jared and i got very silly. now, usually we'd be at each others throats but it seems that every time we bring a new baby home and experience sleep deprivation we get delusional and hysterical. in a good way. at around, oh, 4am, we started cracking jokes about nothing in general. later on, as dawn approached and savannah was vacuuming out my boobs with an intensity i've never seen from her before i looked down and noted "now i understand why some animal mothers eat their babies in the wild". jared responded with a "uh huh" and "wait...what?". then, a few minutes later, i glanced at him and whispered "she's starting to look a bit like a hamburger to me!!!!" to which we cracked up and jared licked his lips. :)

yeah, that's how tired we were. you kinda had to be there. thankfully we all took a family nap for about an hour and a half, and with my parents here and outside with the girls i took a shower and now feel semi human again!!!

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Wednesday, July 04, 2007
Like every new mom, I am in LOVE all over again!

Here's my sweet Savvy, all bundled up and enjoying the swing!

Emma holding her baby :) She's in love, too! Always kissing Savannah and wanting to hold her.

Last night Savannah decided that she didn't want to hear anything Mommy was saying anymore, hehe.

Our good friends Kelly and Stefanie stopped by the hospital to see us during the lovely overnight stay!

Emma gave Savannah a binky and let her smell her flowers. Oh, my heart just melted!

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